T1B15: Rule of 1/3rds

Rule of 1/3rds!
Finally!

I feel like we're getting to the nitty-gritty, technically stuff now. The things I wanted to learn. Discovery method of learning is tiresome, I don't come to a class to be told to go explore. I want to learn HOW to explore, or guidelines to follow.

./too used to IB.

At least now I won't be considering dropping photography at the end of term1, and go do drop in IB Art (which only has 6 people... sad, I know) or IB Bio (which apparently the teacher isn't very good at teaching).

And.... DRAWING ON THE BOARD: SO FUN.
especially exchanging messages with the SY8. They're fun people. : )

T1B14: Composure

So there was a lesson today.
Sadly it took about an hour, and the class is maybe some 75 ish minutes.
15 minutes to take photos...on a rainy day? I'll pass.

But geez, I never thought I would be ever doing another self evaluation with the 'knowledge' and 'learning' again!
I wonder if I can just pull out TOK notes on the knowledge thing, and then debate that none of us has any 'knowledge'. We have 'information' but not knowledge.
I hope that works.

T1B13: Waldo

Where's Waldo?

Hidden somewhere on this page!
(I lied, I can't be bothered to put a little waldo on the page... maybe some other time.)

Hiding waldo, yet keeping him visible is quite... fun.

I can either take a picture with low zoom, and put him somewhere not obvious, or take a picture of Waldo hiding, but zoomed right up to him and his hiding spot.

It's kinda fun, only that the tape sucks and kills waldo's colour quite a lot. : <

T1B12: War Photographer

I was not there for the entire length of the film, but I got the basic gist of it.

I had expected this Photographer to go with the soldiers, and photograph the fighting as well as the tragedies caused by wars. In my head, I had already associated him with Ed Ou (a graduate from Churchill and is now a well-known photojournalist). Dr. Gabbott showed my TOK class his website: www.adventureswithlight.com

On there there are some shots of war actually going on. With guns a'blazing, as one might say.

The war photography thing, was not the kind I expected. It was more of a photography that mainly photographs the consequences of war.

I realize I only saw about half of the film, and thus not all of the photos were seen, but it should be the gist.

I'm impressed with the dedication some people have to go into war-torn and still waging war countries. It's something I could not do.

T1B11 - Fall.

It's a fun topic, but if it is due next class, the time is lacking.
If one does their assignment on Halloween, then they are, quite frankly, screwed for Halloween falls on Monday, the next day of class.

If it's not, then I wonder when it is due...

I really cannot think of anything 'Fall' like in the school, that I have not already taken a picture of, either for a previous assignment, or just because they were interesting. Like the trees, I've taken may pictures, from different angles, exposures, speed (although that was not the best idea), aperture and zoooooooooooom.

Even thought of doing a comparison shot, with one tree still green, and another red.
I went outside to take it, since it was the only shot I could think of. I flipped the camera 'ON', and pressed the shutter.

Nothing happened.

I tried again, and again.

Same result.

Then I actually looked at the LCD... and realized my battery had died. I feel so stupid right now, not charging my battery for a good 2-3 weeks... I didn't see it go to 1 bar of battery, so I assumed it was okay.

Guess it wasn't....
Should have brought my charger, or own a back-up battery. Bleh.

Now I'm not going to get anything. My weekend is booked full, from 9am-9pm. Really praying for the assignment to not be due Monday.

T1B10 - Langara Golf Course

It was cold.

I was unprepared for it, and dang do my hands sting.

1 shot/minute rule... was not followed here.
I just took shots that looks nice. Though after a while, the trees and scenery became normal, and less that 1 shot/minute was taken.
Then I came to deletion, and deleted many, many shots.
I'm kind of left with 48, even though I spent slightly more than an hour in there...
Whoops.

T1B9 - Triangles.

I'm guessing the point of this assignment was to find things we normally don't see.
Like finding triangles in squares, or triangles in letters.

But I don't think that worked out quite as planned, the 20 shot requirement kills off most of the creativity. 20 shots are simple. Especially when there are tons of obvious triangles in the school. I have 30~, and that was only from the first floor and outside.

But if it wasn't for creativity, and just for the lulz as we look for triangles... then that was a horribly boring class.

I'd rather do that 'Garden' assignment, but I know it's cloudy, dark and a bit rainy outside so I'll deal with it.

T1B8 - Shadow.

Was my nickname at Elphinestone for Pre-IB camp.
That sure brings back unwanted memories. :/

Today really was a fine day for shadows. The sun was out, and there were no clouds to trample on our shots. Though this makes me wonder what happens when the block switch comes in and we become the last, or second to last blocks. I just pray that when that time comes, we don't get weather oriented assignments.... :/

Shadows are fun to play around with, though there isn't anyone I know in the class that is a 'friend'. Everything becomes better with more people. The more they merrier, they say. Unless you're out on a date, then the less, the merrier.

I should really bring my adapter to class... then I wouldn't have to upload them at home. Albeit I doubt the school's Internet's ability to upload...

-Kevin

T1B7 - Macro.

I love macro.

But 40 is a bit too much (I think). I don't find everything that can be taken in macro, appealing. The appealing shots are quite few, thus having one take multiple shots of boring, bland things. Like the usual flowers, trees and plants.

Having a dSLR for macro is kinda harsh if one doesn't have a macro lens... Especially if your aperture only goes to 5.0 with room light, and 5.5 with dimmer light. Only outside do I get 3.5 (max), but when I do get 3.5, it's quite literally facing the sun and the light kills it.

I dislike having a bigger depth of field, having a smaller one, in my opinion, is much prettier, and gives a bigger sense of mystery. Especially when you can only barely make out a shape, and then start to guess what that shape was, giving the picture a store for itself.

-Kevin.

T1B6 - Action.

I hated the time this assignment was given.
On a collab day = less time
When it's raining = can't go outside.

And the task is to take pictures of action.
Action usually happens outdoors.

Damn it.

Richmond is also quite an inactive city, I spent 2-3 hours at Minoru park looking for people who were running, jumping, whatnot. :/

Never again.

T1B5 - Self Timer

It's difficult to do this assignment, just because I dislike taking pictures of myself.

For me, it feels awkward.

Even more in a public area, and if people can see me. That's why most of my pictures are taken in places where barely anyone would walk by when class is in session, excluding photography students.

I'm glad it's done now, time to move on.

Move on to the park. I think I'll do it tomorrow or on Monday, since I'm quite busy on Saturday and Sunday.

T1B4 - Flash.

Generally I have an inhumane hate for flash, mainly because it ruins more shots then it makes them better.

The sharp lighting that only hits the places closest to the camera, and forgets the rest is blinding. The ruins the beauty of a shot through it's sudden unbalanced exposure.

Though for indoors, flash is usually a necessity for me because my camera doesn't have high ISO settings to be able to detect light in dim places. Thus, flash becomes useful.

Though 9/10 times there's a person in the shot, he/she will have red eyes. Very annoying.

T1B3 -POV

The change from medium to high is barely noticeable. The only difference is that it seems tilted down (if the object is below).
Sometimes I didn't shoot one object, but a wall with lots of objects at the different levels so each picture may not seem to be linked, but they are.

I think I may have a bit too many for each. But overkill is always better than underkill.

T1B2 - lolvideo.

Seen it before. You have already showed it to me back in grade 9 in MY/SY (whatever it was officially called in gr9). It's a well thought ou film that's basic message is "Your body is amazing" and then provides multiple examples.

But there's not much learning, or new knowledge. The only facts that they give to you are the cones that detect green, red and blue. Theres no talk about the neurons that fire, or the system and howt h neurons work. The only thing that I heard was "your body is amazing because it can do _____". That's great and all, but it's not really informative.

The CGI body with the muscles and stuff was really distracting, I understand they couldn't film the firefighter scene because of darkness and smoke, so the body was acceptable, but the other scenes were just unessecary and horrible.

Photography 11: T1B1

Back to MY-style titling.
Confused about how to blog though, or what to even blog about.

Today we took a few minutes to introduce the project, then set us free into the school to shoot.

Though I couldn't find any classes with people that I knew that had:
1. A teacher that would let me.
2. Lots of people I didn't know to not feel embarrassed at weird.

Also, I have IB camp from tomorrow to end of the week, how I'm going to hand in the homework is going to be a pain in the rear end.

207.

i'm cheating again lol.
24 days without a blog!
i'm dedicated.

i keep foregetting to post about my haircut.
i hate it.

i keep forgetting things on wordpress.
i guess they go here.
e_e

i'm forgetting something, but fuck it. idc.

183.

Sigh. The more I read mangas by Seo, the more I feel I'm missing out on a HUGE part of life.
Though, I think I have kind of left this before. Maybe around last year? Yeah, when gaming became incredibly boring, and I was bored to tears.
It feels like that now.

With school gone, I don't have much of a hobby to keep me busy.
Sure, I like art, music and photography, but I'm not the type to draw randomly, try to create music or walk outside with a camera.
I'm just not like that.
Sure, I can BE like that. and I have quite a bit of ideas that I have stockpiled over the years, but I just...can't see myself actually doing that.

I can't get into a working mode without there being some sort of deadline, time frame, or just someone telling me to start working. =\

Suddenly, I find myself inadvertently feeling jealous. Jealous at the people who have what that I want, the people who can get it but choose not too, and the characters in harmen/romances (harmen? i don't even know if it qualifies for that, maybe just romance) mangas. They get one, then lose it in about 20-30 chapters because they have their 'fatal flaw'. Most of the time it is just that they are stupid, or a natural gigolo. Sigh.

Especially Seo, his art makes me want to try to experience it for myself, and hell, sometimes they have the same thought patterns that I have. It's kinda creepy.

Yamato. Haruto.
I'm so jealous right now.

Even of that one-shot character, Half and Half - which I read a while ago.

A Town Where You Live, eh?
Yeah, I wish you'd stay in this town. Stay long enough for me to come back, and see.

Kimi no Iru Machi.

-Rem.

182.

Sometimes you're really selfish, I hate that about you.
You talk about everyone, but me.
And it's like you don't really care, I'm only there so you have someone to talk to.
Sometimes I wonder "Why am I doing this still?"
Really, I don't even know why, I probably stopped liking you already, no matter how cute or innocent you may be, I'll probably stop.
And I probably won't even say anything. You can just go on without knowing.

Hah.
Don't be so conceited and think it's you.
Gosh.


sidenote: i just realized that people read this. people who i didn't even know... e_e

-Rem.

181.

You piss me off.
SERIOUSLY.

All you do is ask me for stuff.
'do this'
'tell me that'
your excuse is 'we're friends right?'

Well, treat people like YOU want to be treated you little bitch.
You don't do anything for me, you're really arrogant you know that?
It's so annoying that I don't even want to talk to you anymore. Geez, every single damned time you talk to me it's "CAN YOU DO ____ " for me?

I feel like I'm being used as a tool these days, and that really pisses me off.

I seem to be finding that I am the type to hate people who don't do their own work. There should be no excuse to not do homework, unless you can't read english, then you shouldn't even be there.

Getting HELP is okay, but asking for ANSWERS is not.

unless i'm feeling overly generous, I probably won't.
but if it's in person, I don't have the courage to tell you no.
>_>

*sigh*

No actual references are made to events that happened today, except for you being a total lazy bastard. It's one fucking link, go search for it, don't make me do your shit.
and it's a fucking challenge for gods sake, do it yourself.

-Rem.

180.

LOL I'M SUCH A CHEATER.
it's been 17 days without a post here, and it's just like, oh yeah, it's 180 now. even though the last one was 163. yup, nothing changed.

anyways.
Osu!
Damned jianvern...

SOCIALS. HOLY CRAP NOT COOOOOLLLL.
-scared-
i don't want to go tomorrow...don't want to go....
I need a scripit if I do go...

Dad's back tomorrow!
Seemed kinda down on the phone, the funeral still hasn't left his mind, probably... =\
And he's birthday is the day after.
What do i get. What do I do. =\
sigh...

RED TOGA TMR. : D
i sure hope that we're allowed.
and I sure hope to hell that I don't go or socials.
SOCIALS.
q-q
I need more time to qq over it! Don't give it to me tomorrowww!

And kyle, I knew it. ; )
I thought you said you 'used to' like her? Started again? : D
I'm glad it's her though, you make a nice couple. <3
And yes, I probably am high right now.
I mean I typed '<3' without a second thought. =\

NDS roms have gone away,
And Now I'm stuck with nothing to play.
I hope they come back soon,
Or else I shall be doomed,
To wait another week
and feel extremely meek.
So i pray for their return
Or my life shall be adjourned.

qq

Rene, you made me rhyme now too... =\

-Rem.

163.

tis been a while.
wordpress is more attractive than you google, just saying.
; )
even though they lag like crap

Even though I don't understand their BLOCKQUOTE codes.

even though I spend ages trying to find the little webpage picture thingy.
even though it's always double spaced.
even though i hate the posting format.
it's still better.

ANYWAYS
"You put up a smile, and you go for a ride.
You had a bad day, the camera don't lie,
How does it feel? One more time,
You had a bad day."

That's what I feel I'm seeing.
Or, hearing and listening too.
more seeing than the others.
Because I think vision is the best of the 5 sense.
Next is hearing, and then touch.
But in actually usefulness.
Touch, vision, hearing.
Then smell&taste.

Because taste isn't so useful. Unless you're a food/wine critic.

But in general, I would give up my sense of taste if I had to, i wouldn't be THAT bad.
I would be able to eat all that crap I hated before...
sigh.

Though for the personal moral boost, something you enjoy eating/tasting is always the best choice.

./is not trying to recommend binge eating on anything you like...

sigh.

B> more 10/15/20/30/90 day projects to keep my mind off homework, school and life.

-Rem.

153.

And you feel like paradise, and I need a vacation tonight.
^Britney Spears.

See Eugene? This is how 'stars' fall. They sing songs about how they lust for their imaginary partners (since we all know what happened to HER ex-husband). That should be on a checklist of what NOT to sing/write/act about if you eve become some kind of very important figure.

Take France's Prime Minister for example.
Better yet, take a look at ALL of Italy's Prime Ministers.

Damn romanticist Prime Ministers. Control your urges! Maybe they should've learned their lesson from every god damn Prime Minister before him. I would assume one could learn from other's mistakes and not repeat them again, especially how the same mistake has been repeated over and over to the brink where it's not even surprising anymore.

Also, what's with Prime Ministers and underage girls. Seriously. Italy's current day president (2011) has been reported giving money to some 17 year old. Though they deny any kind of relationship, I swear to honest God that they will spill the beans after about 5-10 years, when no one actually cares for them anymore.

How come France didn't learn anything. Go figure that the President of the country that houses the 'City of Love', Paris, would be so captivated by that love that he would go for underage girls. Don't they know that they're underage? I mean, being a president and all, one could expect that at least the president could follow rules.
._.

Something i just noticed. I find it much easier to type things on blogspot that wordpress. Even though I love wordpress so much (not really).

I typed quite a bit about...a line from a song.

Maybe I should do one on Jar of Hearts.
D:

-Rem.

146.

AMC10.
O' how you rhape me.
only did 18/19 questions. Holy shitttt.
it's like
10 times hard than last year...
I DIDN'T EVEN HAVE TIME TO READ ALL 25. HAOSdhajsdyaso.
yeah.
i'm expecting a 90/150 on that test. no hope there.
might sign up for euclid just to get pwnt.
and the grade 10/11 one (fryer/something).
ehhh.
ENOUGH MATH
MORE SCIENCE.

science fair.
1. OH SHIT HOW COME I DIDN'T REMEMBER THAT I DIDN'T PRINT A PROBLEM SECTION?!
i'm so fucked. @_@
2. logbook, OH SHIT NO TABLE OF CONTENTS. WTF IS THISSSSSSSSSSSSSS!
i'm totally going to fail sci-fair again this year. without sean here (like last year), i'm just going to fail at get like 50% like in gr8. =\
ANYWAYS.
THIS YEARS GR8S ARE SCARY. THEY KILL TOO MANY CRICKETS. USE TOO MANY ANTS/BUGS IN GENERAL, AND COPY MY EXPERIMENT FROM LAST YEAR (doesn't even have a clear problem..).
=\

and carmen, your poster does not smell good. D:

-Rem.

142

Because I don't want to face the possibility that I won't get in IB:

English 11.
Physics 11.
Chemistry 11.
Socials 11.
Math 12.
Financial Accounting 12.
Psychology.
Law 12.
Back ups: Digital Photography 11&12.

Law12.
How you intrigue me.

Though i can't remember if I swapped Socials for Law and took another elective... eh.

-Rem.

141.

Course planning tomorrow.
things to ask:
Can we take MORE than just 3 HLs?
If we are allowed to take more than 3 HL's, and I don't get MathHL, is there still time to switch to Physics HL? Since physics must be set in stone. =\

Sigh.
I actually want to take all HLs but french.
Damned french, how I'd love to replace french with arts.
BUT NOOO.
WE HAVE TO HAVE A SECOND LANGUAGE.
go die damnit. I do not want to learn french. I won't be using french anytime soon, and I sure as hell won't be moving to France.
I might visit Paris, that's all. At most.

I hate doing extra-curricular activities in school.
It's pressure on something you enjoy.
Pressure does not make anything more enjoyable.
IB Art. <-- Want to take, want to get back to the canvas, acrylic and maybe even the DSLR. Hell, I want to learn about photography. But IB dictates that I only get one damned elective. Fuck french, and possibly even TOK. I want to take another course.
Sigh, but if I want IB, I'm going to HAVE to take french, and TOK. TOK probably isn't THAT bad (unless Nancy's not exaggerating how shitty the essay is), but french...oh hell no sister. You got me taking french, but I sure as hell won't be enjoying it.

Maybe summer school has photography. Digital photography.
Maybe I'll take it. Even though there's no real point in doing Photography completion.
Wait, I'm going to check.

PHOTOGRAPHIC ART: LIMITED ENROLMENT
"A creative & practical approach designed for those interested in the art of photography. Bring a camera - analog or digital. Create strong images by engaging the principles & elements of art within your photographs. Includes lectures & critique of your photos, a field trip, & demos. Individual creativity emphasized. Instructor has had numerous solo gallery photographic art shows and has participated in many group art events locally & internationally. Limit : 15 students. "

^Sounds...amazing.

"Days: TUE "
Not good...

"Time: 6:30 PM-9:30 PM"
Shit. ._.

"Start Date:8 February 2011"
Andddd double shit.

Way to kick me when I'm down continuing Ed. >_>

Knowledge, how you continue to attract me.

THINGS I WANT TO LEARN:
Photography.
CAVAS ART. & PEN ART.
Adobe elements.
Psychology&Geography (yes, I want geography)
Drums&Guitar(?)
(excludes what I'm already taking)

THINGS I CAN'T LEARN THIS YEAR/NEXT YEAR BECAUSE OF NO TIME.
Photography.
CAVAS ART. & PEN ART.
Geography.
Drums&Guitar.

that's like 4/6 things, and Elements could be taught by just playing around.

sigh.

I wish I didn't take programming, and had taken Digital photography.
But then would I have time for Accounting? And I wasn't even that interested in Photography then. =\
sigh.

I hate deciding between two things I really want. >_>

THINGS I WANTED TO TAKE BUT DIDN'T GET TO TAKE:
Martial Arts - Yeah, I wanted to take this way back when I was doing skating (grade4/5).
math11e - damned accounting.
Electronics - Good job computers, good job.

sigh.

Enough about school. More about people.

I just don't get people. They confuse me. It's like there is NO WAY to understand what someone is thinking. Sure, it might be crazy to even think that there is a way to understand, but trust me, there is. It's just impossible to get there.
sigh.

I don't get girls though. Guys are okay, because I'm one myself and it's easier to understand. Girls, no idea. Aren't females the more 'complex' gender of the two? sigh.

-Rem.

140.

something must be wrong with me today.
robot unicorn attack.
tetris. (AND I WAS WINNING!)
maplestory.
looked at wk and decided against it.
same with with lt.
now sam tsui.
and christina grimmie.
i think
i'm like on some kind of
pseudo-fangirl/boy period thingy.

someone smart explain plox.

-rem

139.

Amazing.




nomnomnom.
i'ma eat chu.

134.

i find it funny that I go about my day just thinking and thinking about things that I'd like to write down to remember for personal reason. (At the same time I'll probably end up thinking of things to write on blogs too.) Then when i sit down to type/write, and then my mind goes blank. ._.
It's like that when I write my essays. I plan out my points and details, then just forget all the details, and only remember my main points. From there, it's there freestyle all the way to the end.
Maybe that's why I do terrible on in class essays.
lol

okay fail.
i can't think of what i wanted to type.
._.

FAIL!

-Rem.

133.

ew.
i just ate a chinese version of a ritz bit cracker.
the cheese does not taste like cheese.
the crackers did not taste like wheat.
it tasted like
...
nothing
literally.
._.
always count on the chinese manufacturers to make a flavorless food.
nasty.

pokemon white/black looks...horrendous, to say the least.
does not look like pokemon
does not look like anything.
looks more like digimon or some crap.
my goal of the month (feb+ jan) is to not swear more than 3times a day.
someone keep track for me.
: )
i think i should make a punishment or something if I go pass 3.
or maybe i should bring that to 5, and not 3. LOL
sigh.
hoe/hore/manhore is not a swear word.
it's just an indecent word.
: )!

dear all teacher's i've had (expect ms.dinter/kenon),
if you think i have a mild personality.
please listen to one conversation i have with any friend.
srsly.
>_>

and if I do indeed have this second personality,
or as they call
'split' personality.
it probably only kicks in during times where i'm suppose to not act like an idiot.
coughaverycough.

okay randomly i have a summer job.
now i'm scared it'll interfere with career prep and summer school plans.
=\

sigh.
money is good.
but
knowledge is better.
well
for now at least.
because when your 20,
and someone says that they'll teach you
you're going to reject it.
because you want money.

brandon,
see what I did thar?
: )

-Rem.

132.

woke up.
7:40.
what.
the
hell.

you cannot imagine.
how annoyed I was
but more then that
how much i was stressing.
it's like.
if it snaps.
bam.
there I'd go.

sigh.
gavin.
it might not be your fault.
but
i'm not working with you again.

anyways.
watching pro level brawl.
holy shit.
it's like.
WTFBBQHOW'DYOUDOTHATTTTTTTT.
ZZS is pro.
no wait.
riddle is pro.
godly pro. @_@

ANYWAYS.
SCREW TS.
JC IS EPIC.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3V0opKObsPY
JC. <3
TS has nothing on that LOL.

-Rem.

131.

I want to visit a shrink.
To see what they say about my 'issues'.
And see how far they differ from my internal thoughts.
Then decide if I want to pay them.
:3

jkjk.

Maybe I'll major phsyc.
and become a loathed shrink.
what a great life that would be.

okay back2IS.

-Rem.

130.

sigh.
sat
holy ----.
it wasn't complete death
but wasn't a walk in the park either.
it was...medicore.
but probably only mediocore because i was DYING from the stress.
holy shit.
i'm so
so
so
fucked.
for IS though
sat, can rhape me another day.
then socials essay shall have it' turn
and then science fair as well


sighhhh.
i need to get that script for IS
or i'm never going to finish this poster.
fuck,
i'm never working with gavin/jim again.
i don't know why i worked with jim again
after english play.
i should've know better.


sighhh.
fft.
there is only lust at first sight, not love.
fft2.
if you love 2 people at once, go for the second. because if you were truly in love with the first, you wouldn't have fallen for the second.
fft3.
what if.
it's not first sight.
and it's not 2. and it's not a continuous love. but one that starts and dies again?
sigh.
i wish i was rich enough to hire a philosopher to give me quotations of wisdom for my life.

sigh.
back to IS.
i mean msn.
I MEAN IS
IS.
ISSSSSSSS.
holy shit i'm screwed.

-Rem.

129.

oh how i feel stupid.
damned life.
fucks with me the first half.
and is like
'OH I FEEL PITY FOR YOU, HERE'
and I know.
that i'm going to fuck it up in place for life.
._.

Oh life, how you troll me.

Decisions, how you conflict me.

Me, how I hate me.

sigh.
i think i get more chances than anyone else.
but i screw up more than anyone else.
sighhh.

Now you the kind of girl people said I'd never see ,
but girl you picture perfect & a masterpiece ,
and I wonder if it's real , you're the woman of my dreams ,
pretty prom queen , sweeter than a sixteen ,
not a single thing about you I would ever change ,
if perfect is your aim , then baby just stay the same ,
got you on my mind , leave everything behind ,
a dime so divine , you a one of a kind ,
now you the kind of girl I can hold for my life ,
smile for the light , yeah I found miss right ,
your lips are minor kiss , your hips are minor grip ,
forget the rest baby girl , cus I promise this is it ,
and this is for you , I dedicate every bar ,
and if you ever feel alone , I am never too far ,
but no matter what I say , it will never phase you ,
but baby God did his best work when he made you , yeah .


-Rem.

128.

SKATING YESSSSSs.
time to wake up at 10 and leave at 1. @_@
1 and a half hours of circling should keep me satisfied for a while...
SOMEONE SHOULD GO WITH ME D:

side note
i think my voice is screwed. @_@
it keeps sounding muffled.
bleh.

ANYWAYS
i hate horoscopes
because
they are so ambigious that I can't see it coming until it happens.
then it's like
OH SHIT WTF?
and i can't remember the horoscope so it's like
uh....G2GBYE.
=\

horoscopes
i loathe thee.
AND LOATHE IS NOT LOVE DAMNIT. ) : <

naivety is not rewarded.

-Rem.

127.5 PLANNINGGGGGGGGGG

oh shit.
IS AND SOCIALS BOOKS.

shit
someone remind me to head to the library afterschool....
I'll end up camping there til 2 or somethin'. ._.
maybe I'll hit minoru library instead.
eh
AND
OMG SKATING FROM 9AM-3PM.
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
time to kill my legs.
BUT
HELL YESSSSSSSSS

sadly
no one else wants to skate. Q_Q
=\

scifair!
need to prep up and wait or the 5 days to pass.
at least next week is work free right
because it's essay time.
fuck.
=\
IS TIME TOO.
SHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET
I'm going to be 74% in IS again.
fun, fun.
can't wait for planning
what horrors await me there.

127

omg.
tomorrow is short classes.
YESSSSSSSSS>
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!
english&socials.
i hate socials.
english is bearable because english is fun
and because ms.arnold is awesome.
like ms.scott.
sigh.
i wish mr.puddicombe didn't retire. =\
UNRELATED BUT OKAYYYYYYYYY
moving on.

started to wait for 5 days for sci-fair. fun next 5 days i shall have. ._.
how i loathe science fair.
i wish it would just
DIE.
just like socials essay
and IS project.
btw,
did i mention my group is fucked for tomorrow?
handout. holyshit.
i hope jim/sherlene do their job.

sigh.
OMG.
ITS ONLY 9:30
WIN
I AM
GOING TO SLEEP BEFORE 12 TODAY.
YESSSSSSSSSSSS!
Win.
8D

anyways.
hd228 is luring me in.
Q_Q
especially with yuchen having me research headphones now and not earbuds.
D:
sigh
ONE DAY.
THAT SMEXY WHITE HEADPHONE.
SHALL BE CLAIMED.
(and kill my wallet)
BUT.
IT
IS
8D

better than 'yo soloHDs.
coughjustbeatsCOUGH.

-rem.

126.5

planning ahead=
deciding what I'm going to do on friday.
swim.
skate.
homework.
all at minoru~!
because SAT on saturda realy is a joy-kill. =\

-Rem.

126.

ouch.
that hurts.
=\

11/20 on accounting.
screw you general journal/ledger pair,
don't inf-combo, let me down.

sigh.
class in 15.
i like the class.
but like always
i'll hate it all the way until it happens
then
i'll love it.
guess that's why i'm still taking it.
still allowing it to be in my schedule.
sigh.

for some reason...
never mind.
because
no one seems to
ever
speak their mind.

anyways.
tumblr.
why you die on me.
sigh, i don't even know whether the button was clicked or not.
tumblr,
you hate on me.
i give.
you win tumblr.
time to go.

want to read eleven minutes.
just because paulo coelho is amazing.
screw the fact that i chose it because it was short.
it is
amazing.

gah, phone died and needs recharging.
at least i have minutes now. @_@

oh and
dear you,
tell me soon.

-Rem.

Psst, just remembered.
hah, I beat your measly 1.5k psat score. AND YOU'RE A GRADE OLDER!
8D

125.

I'm. So. Glad. I. Found. You.
-Elliot Reid.

Now, I wonder if you feel the same.

-Rem.

124.

sucked into audiophile again...
last time that happened was when I got those RHJE300s.
those were amazing.

sadly.
their durability is not amazing.

but the sony pair i have right now
their durability is godlike.
or maybe i just learned how to not rhape a pair of in-ears within half a year.

sennheiser pmx60, hd218/228 or px100/200ii
^they make me want to save up for them.
sadly, i'll have no money for around...3-4 monthes?
*sigh*

why aren't the white 228's for 60$ like it is on bestbuy.COM, not ca.
canadian px200ii should come in white.
those headphones look amazing.

anyways
no progress in LT today.
made like what, 30%?
anyways
I always knew ai wasn't the 'normal' kind.
but
eh.
shouldn't expect thigs out of people anyways.
though i kinda knew.
but didn't really help.
now i feel like shit.
i hate discussing things on blogs.
i feel like shit afterwards.
back to annoyed feeling.
./repeat yesterday.

>_>

-Rem.

123.

Toki-kun.
Q_Q

i hate the author for making yuuki and toki enemies. @_@
and npot. ._.
wtf, irie, just stfu and kick his ass already.
filler chapters are shit.
and you know it.

sigh
i'm annoyed.
not with my mom's decision
but the fact that i can't fight for it.
i feel shitty and useless
and that
really pisses me off.
shit mood, start now.

-Rem.

122.

uhm.
1:11am. : )

not the best time to type a blog, but meh. could be worse.
found a soul urn.
gumiho i think it's called
^ignore if you 99.999% of the people who have no idea what I'm saying.
: )

i have been shocked when jessica showed me aj rafeal - when we stay and i realized that the mv was made by wongfuproductions.
holy shit.
where have i been. @_@
i saw everything between that upload. what the hell.

ANYWAYS.
that song is really...gah.
it's like god's trying to fuck with me again. >_>
i hate when it happens.
just like the newest problem in life.

anyways
how do you define 'loving someone'?
liking someone is different, that's just enjoying being with them (for me).
trusting is when you can talk about anything to them without it being weird.
suddenly, i can't even tell anymore.
who?
why?
for how long does this go on.

being the sole one to understand someone is painful.
but
not having a single person understand you, yourself included, is shit.
i don't even know anymore. ._.
it's not enough to pull another gr7 stunt.
hell, nothing will be worth that...
sigh. maybe i should get more of a social life before trying for ib.

another thing.
i feel
...
nothing

you know, when you're in school with projects looming above you, you feel pressure.
but
i'm feeling nothing. I have science fair and IS Country project and Socials essay and ENglish IRP and so on.
maybe baddy will help some...
sigh.
maybe i should go run at minoru again at 1am when my parents are asleep. =\

sigh,
point proven.
no one knows me.
well enough.
maybe rene.
but
not the other side.
i'm a hypocrite gavin.
sorry.

-Rem.

121

hey pre-ib teachers.

I know.
i know that ib isn' for the student that has not felt failure.
not for the student who has always been the best, bu may come to ib and realize that he's nothing.
i know

i knew, from the day i was accepted into MY.
my first reaction: 'what, no way.'
i proceeded to see if the smarter people who applied got in.
they didn't
only ones(guys) were sean and yuchen.
i had forseen them get in anyways, with their marvelous scores and all.

but. kc and ab. the didn't.
i excepted them too.
with their 6+ strings of A's.
compared to my lowly 2-3.

i, was shocked.
thanks MY, for screwing with my gr7 final project.
i spent most of the time i had for the project just wondering.
wondering, how the hell did I get in. what do I have that they don't?
they're smarter, better, more athletic, more artistic and creative, and they are confident in themselves.
i don't have any of that.

that's why i had extra time to finish my project.
ms.scott gave me 2 extra weeks.
btw, isn't ms.scott is AMAZING?
don't answer that.
she is.

it took me about year after then, to finally realize.
haha, i think i lied when i said 'i realized when i was accepted into MY'
more like, a year after i was accepted.

damned ib prep talks and crap.
hit me pretty hard that,
damn.
i'm fit for it. o_o

other than my shit grades LOL.

and now this is geting weird to type because boasting was never something i could do anytime.
heck.
it wasn't something i could do at all without feeling weird.
this is why compliments throw me off.
being shit makes me want to improve.
compliments make me cocky.
i hate feeling cocky.
it's like the worse feeling on earth.
unless i'm being 100% sarcastic.

-Rem.

119.

lol.
laptop
headphones
feels like college life.
only without the college.

life is only FUCKING WITH ME.

lol

-Rem.

116

ib info night
boring.
nothing i haven't heard before.

math class.
finally.
understood.
trig identities... ._.
sure took me a while.
!*(#$).

french title page.
cao.
science test.
cao
math test.
...eh.

ANYWAYS.
back to french.

-Rem.

115.1

back from class.
liang zhu.
first.
holy.

suddenly
i have a new appreciation for anyone who could play that before.
those slidy notes....
@_@

now to dinner.
dinde. ;o

-Rem.

115.

fun day.
on the way home.
i meet more people than normal.
was going to leave straight away because wed = recycling club so yuchen&wayne stay until later.
but apparently, there isn't club today.

Walking up to 49th, meet Brandon. : O!

getting to cambie, i thought that girl was iris.
apparently wayne stalks iris, and brandon stalks that girl.
xD

Got off at YVR, phone started to ring.
my first thought = "HOLY SHIT DID MAGGIE CHANGE HER MIND..AGAIN?!"
reluctant to pick up....
but picked up anyways.
girl's voice.
first thought = "HOLY SHIT IT IS. HOLY CRAP WHY DOES SHE CHANGE HER MIND SO FAST. I'M NOT GOING BACK!"
then.
'oh wait, thats not her. -headdesk-'
xD

saw Chantel&darren on the skytrain.
they're getting off at Aberdeen because chantel has a math class and dragged darren there with her. ;o

everyone got off. and i'm alone.
get off a brighouse, walk a bit and see eva.
30 seconds later.
'HOLYSHITBUSSSSSSSSSSSSS!'
obviously catch the bus, and get home.
@_@

fun day.

114.6

haha.
i just realized how almost every single one of my posts that are directed to 'you' are directed to the same person.
maybe i should clarify who it is.
because i don't know who reads this...
because the last time i was posting on live...
aaron was following.
and i'm just like
O_O?
LOLWUT?!
-shock-

yesh.
:3

and if aaron's reading this now.
it's okay. LOL

back to science.
-Rem.

114.5

ugh.
if you're like miwa.
holy shit.

@_@
life has suddenly because much MUCH more confusing. =\
you probably are.
just that.
sigh.

inner thoughts are to remain inner thoughts.
meh.

114.

hn.
why is it that
it's much easier to talk via the internet
then it is in real life?

Does the person really change all that much?
i wonder.

through the internet, i talk to people I never would have in real life situations.
not because they're strangers
or because the live too far away
but because of our society's way of grouping.

people form separate groups are not suppose to interact.
in school, that's easy to see.
on the internet, no one knows.
and don't even bring up trojans, hackers and such.
most people don't know.
and never will.

the internet is making real life awkward.
via it, i'm able to 'chat' to someone else for hours on end.
but bring that situation to real life.
and that conversation dies in minutes.

how fun.

-Rem.

113.

today, was the first time in several years that i actually ate the chocolate someone gave to me, and not have it being gifted to some other kid.
damn, does it taste good.
but then again
my teeth will die.
in minutes.

was looking for my web cam's driver, and finally found it.
and then just screwed around by god because the damned cs has like 6 drivers.
i think i got it.
u908 is 201...
apparently the cd thinks numbers are 707 digits smaller than they actually are.

and just fyi.
i'm not interested. ._.

AND
HAHAH!
MY WEBCAM'S WORKING.
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
sadly
i won't use it.
because.
): <

anyways.
school tomorrow.
T-T
sadface.
sigh.

Should start sci-fair now
&sleep.

-Rem.

112.

bored at class. =/

Is it just me or am i fucking up friendships without really knowing it?
Its like...i say something that i think is okay, but the other person thinks im just being an asshole.

Sigh.
Take one step at a time.

I wanted that to be my tumblr name... But
1. It was kinda...eh.
2. It was taken.

More 1 than 2.
2 could be easily 'removed' but 1 can't.

And this guy to my left is being retarded. -.-

Je ecrive francias on this thing.

Sadly, no chinese.
This is why i hate sundays...
Oh and saturdays too.

Ill pull up my code from last year and type out a lot of shit when i get back. I swear..i need to rant about some stuff because this class is horrible. Ugh.

I wish this day would just end...
Hell, I wish this school year would just end. It's one hell of a torture.
Maybe even grade 11 will be shit.
Because gr11 is the year where you should prepare for university.

fuck. I hate this class.
But...it's suppsedly 'useful'.
And no, i'm not using this time to try toimprove my typing on this phone.

Sigh.

Oh how badly do i want to just put on some earbuds and let the world drift away...
And totally not sign to myself. :3

Somehow google bdellium for me. What the shit is that.

111

Suitable for January 1st, 2011.

Haha.
It's funny how I type up a 'frat' oh something i want to write in here on my ipod, but then just go 'meh, not like it has to be here'.
Motivation-less.
@_@

New Year's Resolution: Work. Hard. and the other ones I had typed up before...on my ipod.
>_>

if only you could extract it.
sighhh.

110

It's 4 am.
I can't sleep.
slept too much in the car

no one's online to talk to.
literally
NO ONE.
._.

sigh.
lets go find some random pandora's box to open
and unleash diseases and sickness around the world, but keep hope in the box.
>_>

too bored to type trip.
sigh.

need more friends that stay awake well past 3am on year news...lol.