79. - chi.

chobits.
=\
Hideiki, I'm guilty of that too now. D:

why ARE the 'robots' all designed to look and act like people?
ugh.
Chobits is pretty hardcore.
It's getting to me.
right there.
...
no, not THERE.
but like there.
okay stfu, i know it's weird.

=\

science.
bite me.

-Rem.

LOL - 77.5

...xD
I love this iPod game.
fucking hardcore seeker missiles...
that hit over half way through the map
build 'em on the other side.
and watch the lag.
LOL

it was literally just all missiles on my screen.
fucking epic.
oh and.
1mil on 'Baby' on ttr3.
fuck you luck.
make me get over 1mil...
on a fucking bieber song.
RAGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

MUST FIND MORE TOWER DEFENSE!

-Rem.

77.

Oh god.
Why the hell must sat registration be so long.
why the heck would you need to know how much my parents earn a year, or their level of education?
or my preferred college settings
or my preferred amount of college students
or my SIN.
or the years i'm going to spend taking math,science,socials,english,languages,others when you know god damned well that my high school is 5 years, yours is only 2. ._.

gtfo college board. ) : <

but anyways, jan 22. gah. time to get rhaped by an SAT. Just hope for 2200+, and i won't have to do this shit again.
fucking vocab. >_>

anyways.
Rene being a mod totally doesn't look right.
he's like
LOLFLAME, LOLBASH, LOLSTEREOTYPE.
bloody hell.

Stuttering.

-Rem.

76.

fuck do my eyes hurt.
they've been hurting for like a week now.
._.

is it because of my lack of sleep
or the other reason?

i hope it's not the other reason.
because i can't fix that one.
...
without trying to kill myself. ._.

oh and.
just because i can

watashi wa anata ga daisuki....desu. : D!!!

anyways.
i think i'll go get those O weights at sears...
even if 2kg isn't very heavy. =\
but PE with those.
oh fuck.

...oh right.
square dancing.
-headdesk-

rem, out!

-Rem.

75.

Nanospeed 800. GET.
for the same price that i got my 100.
._.

though I haven't played baddy in like...3 months.
what a waste of money.
should've gotten power wrists/anklets. =\

-Rem.

great.

good luck.
I hope you just don't.
end up falling.
and not standing back up again.
haha.

That's mean, I know.
But what else can I do?

-Rem.

;o

i feel stupid.
EVERYONE did COMC.
I didn't even hear about it until...yesterday. ._."
the disadvantage of ahving accounting, you lose math11e.
and contests.
):

Essay!
I think I did okay.
When i was writing, I kept looking at the score sheet thingy i wrote.
10-12(C+)
thats what I'm NOT aiming for.
13-15(B) <-- what i'm aiming for.
16-18(A) <-- if picard goes mad.
19-20(SSS!) <--...nah.

=\

A.S.S.
lols.

my time with you.
: )!

-Rem.

fuck.

policy of conciliation.
WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?!

-totally screwed-

socials...
i wish you'd die.

-Rem.

cry.

I want to cry.

The past week, I've probably been called 'useless' and 'not worth the effort' more than anything else in my entire life.
Is it really my fault if I went over 30 minutes in my first week? Especially if the bulk of that was during unlimited calling.
Lost $50.
It wasn't suppose to be ours in the first place you know.
But still
you gave me the look of detest.
The look that tells the person, 'you're some useless pile of shit, why the hell did i even raise you.'

thanks mom.
thanks.

this is probably the most painful thing you've done to me.
probably worse than giving birth.
the mental pain hurts more than just momentum physical pain.

&you, who called.
don't worry.
it's not your fault.
it's mine.

because everything that goes wrong in my family is my fault.

-Rem.

69.

._.
ugh day is ugh.
chinese test ugh.
2 wrong. ugh.
no $10 16gb usb, ugh.
hair cut, ugh.
rage, ugh.
shipping failures, ugh.
have not sent amazon more complaints, ugh.
life, ugh. >_>

-rem.

68.

1-800-suicide!

okay fuck you amazon.
seriously?
You screw up the fucking shipping.
and now you're like
'lolweupgradedyourshippping,sentanewone,andmadeyoupayforbothlololol'
fuck you.
never again, am i getting ANYTHING from amazon.
Even if it's fucking amazon exclusive.
I want my shit on time, and not 2 months later.
I'll buy shit from e-bay instead of amazon.
screw yourself.
i don't even want the lumix gf1 anymore.
keep your 1000 dollar shit.
don't charge it to me.

fuck.
...
./endrage.

*apologies for excessive swearing.

-Rem.

66.

weeeeh.
I'm actually working nowadays!
shocking,i know.
I tried vindictus again yesterday.
fuck.
The lag was horrible, could barely play.

Violin class.
ugh.
guilttripguilttripguilttripguilttripguilttrip.
^story of my life.

is it just me, or am i really self-concious about what others think of me.
wait.
no one would know that...
unless they analysis my actions...
which is creepy.
but thoughtful(?). :3

anyways.
kgs go.
meet remmy! : )

-Rem.

64.

fuck, late for school.
woke up at 8:15.
NOT GOOD.
it's 12:17 right now so like.
yeah.
NEW CELLPHONE IS ADDICTIVE.

songs.
2gb free microsd.
music
=
Happy me. 8D

SCREW IPODS, THIS IS ENOUGH BABY.
...lol.

anyways, heres something:
i feel like your using me. and just saying 'ily' just to make it seem not as bad.
if you really do, prove it.

GAVIN.
GO.
FRIDAY.

MUST REMEMBER!
(played violin yesterday) :D!
not today though.

-Rem.

yay!

vivaz pro.
GET.

testing.
GET.

caller ID.
NOT GET.

fido-network plan.
NOT GET.

eh, that's okay.
I probably could've gotten caller id if I wasn't such a lazy ass and finished my fucking sat homework. >_>

-Rem.

Shed a tear.

here it comes.
can't you see
that we're tough guys and we have feelings
take my hand
close your eyes.
with you right here
i'ma shed a tear
and cry.

.

Holy crap.
"Why are you fat"
"Why are your teeth not pure white?"
"Why are your eyes 450 degrees?"
"Why do you not go outside often?"
"Why don't you go out with your friends more?"
"Why is your chinese horrible?"
"Why do you not heavily focus on school?"
"Why is Yuchen at a higher level of violin than you?"
"Why does sean know how to play more instruments than you?"

Why do you even bother asking this shit.
If you want to know why.
Go ask yourself.
Your genes.
Your mother&father's genes.
That's why.

You're not thinking about my future when you have me practice for SAT.
Nor Violin, or piano.
Even getting into MY and Pre-IB and now, IB.
They're all for yourself.
For you to be able to brag.
That your 'son' is doing very well.
In enriched courses.
Plays instruments.
Has a high score on SAT.
That's all you want.
When I decided to take Jap.
You were enraged.
"YOU'RE SO GOOD AT FRENCH ALREADY."
Totally. I can't even remember how to say 'to' in french.
You just want me to get good at one language.
So then you can say 'My son is fluent in French!'.
Because none of your friends are amazed at a child learning Japanese.

Thanks mom.
For thinking about me,
and not you.

oh god.

htc surround....
I DON'T CARE IF IT RUNS WINDOWS 7 OS, THE PHONE IS HAWT. D:

do want.
But not for $450...even if that's the cheaper of the phones that look nice to me.
Other than d.lite. But dlite and surround aren't in the same category, so...8D

-Rem.

60.

oh god.
typical anime moment.
-covers nose&mouth with hand-
@_@
-blood gushes out-

I think you know what I mean.

I'm not going to comment on the above.
i have no guts to.

-Rem.

59.

haha.
lost my chance today.
xD
...
though then again...
that isn't anything to be happy about.
I think
I feel guilty more than sad.


Sorry.
It's just like.
since gr7.
they became...
'valuable'.

Though...you deserve one...
but...
...
blame jian because he reads this too.
LOL.
: )!

sorry though.
maybe some other time....
when certain conditions are meet. LOL

-Rem.

58.

You know whats scary to me?

Someone knowing everything about me.
And someone, who isn't afraid to talk about it to others.
It fucking scares me.

Truth be told.
I don't think there is anyone I know, that I would willingly tell them my secrets.

Sigh.
It really is true that people of the opposite gender make better friends.
Friends as in...trust-worthy or secret keepers.
Not friends as in...you enjoy hanging out with them or playing together.
hahayeah.

I think this post is quite...dark.

On the bright side, my formspring seems to have some random person asking me questions. o-o;;

Though they get close&personal really fast.
It's not even funny!
The first two questions I've had in a while are like
'who do you like'
and then the same thing...with choices. >_>

and why the fuck are SAT schools so close to me. ._.
It's just like god telling my parents to make me take the sat.
like
'MAKE HIM TAKE IT. THE SCHOOL IS ONLY 3 BLOCKS AWAY'
>_>
THIS IS WHY I DON'T BELIEVE IN YOU GOD.
WHY YOU MAKE ET SO CLOSE!!!111oeneon1EOO!E1eoeon1e!!e!1.
./RQ

Time to start uploading the handwriting challenge.
>_>

SUPER SCRIBBLENAUTS!
...fails to install properly.
/.RQx2

-Rem.

'I just haven't taken you yet.'

: )!

Or met you.
'I just haven't met you yet.'

-rem.

57.5+

hah.

I laugh.

Not at you, or you. Neither him nor her.
But me.

So I've changed hm? Is that all you can see? 'Change'?

Your 'change' is what I like to call 'walls'

Don't worry, you'll never understand.

Letting no one see what's there.

Funny.

the right thing to do.

never seem to follow through.

I guess that is what you call

Holy hell.

But

and fool some

int.
ject

57.

lol.

guess who failed today?
DAYLIGHT SAVINGS.
._.
good job kevin, you woke up an hour early.
now you lost one hour of sleep.
and how badly i needed that hour too.
._.


anyways.
I GOT HER EMAIL.
:3
one step forward.
her ipod ran out of batteries.
two steps back.
xD
it's not that bad.
At least I have it!
: )

ugh. I really do need some kind of notebook that i carry with me...
i always seem to find something to say when i'm not on the computer...then when i am actually ON the computer...i forget what it was.
yay for short-term memory loss. >_>

okay afk, trying to sleep again...
./fail

obvious fail is obvious.

-Rem.

54.

...more and more pedo-ish feelings.
oh god.

Someone either make her older.
or make me younger
...
then again...
i don't want to do grade 7/8/9 again.
And she's smart enough for grade 9/10...>_>

if only that could happen. xD
-freeze world but her-
-three years later-
UNFREEZE.
: D!

if only. xD

well uhm.
Need to get more silver gems.
to run albey silver with her anyways.
>_>
must. not. die. again!

Ai shi ai.

-Rem.