122.

uhm.
1:11am. : )

not the best time to type a blog, but meh. could be worse.
found a soul urn.
gumiho i think it's called
^ignore if you 99.999% of the people who have no idea what I'm saying.
: )

i have been shocked when jessica showed me aj rafeal - when we stay and i realized that the mv was made by wongfuproductions.
holy shit.
where have i been. @_@
i saw everything between that upload. what the hell.

ANYWAYS.
that song is really...gah.
it's like god's trying to fuck with me again. >_>
i hate when it happens.
just like the newest problem in life.

anyways
how do you define 'loving someone'?
liking someone is different, that's just enjoying being with them (for me).
trusting is when you can talk about anything to them without it being weird.
suddenly, i can't even tell anymore.
who?
why?
for how long does this go on.

being the sole one to understand someone is painful.
but
not having a single person understand you, yourself included, is shit.
i don't even know anymore. ._.
it's not enough to pull another gr7 stunt.
hell, nothing will be worth that...
sigh. maybe i should get more of a social life before trying for ib.

another thing.
i feel
...
nothing

you know, when you're in school with projects looming above you, you feel pressure.
but
i'm feeling nothing. I have science fair and IS Country project and Socials essay and ENglish IRP and so on.
maybe baddy will help some...
sigh.
maybe i should go run at minoru again at 1am when my parents are asleep. =\

sigh,
point proven.
no one knows me.
well enough.
maybe rene.
but
not the other side.
i'm a hypocrite gavin.
sorry.

-Rem.