139.

Amazing.




nomnomnom.
i'ma eat chu.

134.

i find it funny that I go about my day just thinking and thinking about things that I'd like to write down to remember for personal reason. (At the same time I'll probably end up thinking of things to write on blogs too.) Then when i sit down to type/write, and then my mind goes blank. ._.
It's like that when I write my essays. I plan out my points and details, then just forget all the details, and only remember my main points. From there, it's there freestyle all the way to the end.
Maybe that's why I do terrible on in class essays.
lol

okay fail.
i can't think of what i wanted to type.
._.

FAIL!

-Rem.

133.

ew.
i just ate a chinese version of a ritz bit cracker.
the cheese does not taste like cheese.
the crackers did not taste like wheat.
it tasted like
...
nothing
literally.
._.
always count on the chinese manufacturers to make a flavorless food.
nasty.

pokemon white/black looks...horrendous, to say the least.
does not look like pokemon
does not look like anything.
looks more like digimon or some crap.
my goal of the month (feb+ jan) is to not swear more than 3times a day.
someone keep track for me.
: )
i think i should make a punishment or something if I go pass 3.
or maybe i should bring that to 5, and not 3. LOL
sigh.
hoe/hore/manhore is not a swear word.
it's just an indecent word.
: )!

dear all teacher's i've had (expect ms.dinter/kenon),
if you think i have a mild personality.
please listen to one conversation i have with any friend.
srsly.
>_>

and if I do indeed have this second personality,
or as they call
'split' personality.
it probably only kicks in during times where i'm suppose to not act like an idiot.
coughaverycough.

okay randomly i have a summer job.
now i'm scared it'll interfere with career prep and summer school plans.
=\

sigh.
money is good.
but
knowledge is better.
well
for now at least.
because when your 20,
and someone says that they'll teach you
you're going to reject it.
because you want money.

brandon,
see what I did thar?
: )

-Rem.

132.

woke up.
7:40.
what.
the
hell.

you cannot imagine.
how annoyed I was
but more then that
how much i was stressing.
it's like.
if it snaps.
bam.
there I'd go.

sigh.
gavin.
it might not be your fault.
but
i'm not working with you again.

anyways.
watching pro level brawl.
holy shit.
it's like.
WTFBBQHOW'DYOUDOTHATTTTTTTT.
ZZS is pro.
no wait.
riddle is pro.
godly pro. @_@

ANYWAYS.
SCREW TS.
JC IS EPIC.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3V0opKObsPY
JC. <3
TS has nothing on that LOL.

-Rem.

131.

I want to visit a shrink.
To see what they say about my 'issues'.
And see how far they differ from my internal thoughts.
Then decide if I want to pay them.
:3

jkjk.

Maybe I'll major phsyc.
and become a loathed shrink.
what a great life that would be.

okay back2IS.

-Rem.

130.

sigh.
sat
holy ----.
it wasn't complete death
but wasn't a walk in the park either.
it was...medicore.
but probably only mediocore because i was DYING from the stress.
holy shit.
i'm so
so
so
fucked.
for IS though
sat, can rhape me another day.
then socials essay shall have it' turn
and then science fair as well


sighhhh.
i need to get that script for IS
or i'm never going to finish this poster.
fuck,
i'm never working with gavin/jim again.
i don't know why i worked with jim again
after english play.
i should've know better.


sighhh.
fft.
there is only lust at first sight, not love.
fft2.
if you love 2 people at once, go for the second. because if you were truly in love with the first, you wouldn't have fallen for the second.
fft3.
what if.
it's not first sight.
and it's not 2. and it's not a continuous love. but one that starts and dies again?
sigh.
i wish i was rich enough to hire a philosopher to give me quotations of wisdom for my life.

sigh.
back to IS.
i mean msn.
I MEAN IS
IS.
ISSSSSSSS.
holy shit i'm screwed.

-Rem.

129.

oh how i feel stupid.
damned life.
fucks with me the first half.
and is like
'OH I FEEL PITY FOR YOU, HERE'
and I know.
that i'm going to fuck it up in place for life.
._.

Oh life, how you troll me.

Decisions, how you conflict me.

Me, how I hate me.

sigh.
i think i get more chances than anyone else.
but i screw up more than anyone else.
sighhh.

Now you the kind of girl people said I'd never see ,
but girl you picture perfect & a masterpiece ,
and I wonder if it's real , you're the woman of my dreams ,
pretty prom queen , sweeter than a sixteen ,
not a single thing about you I would ever change ,
if perfect is your aim , then baby just stay the same ,
got you on my mind , leave everything behind ,
a dime so divine , you a one of a kind ,
now you the kind of girl I can hold for my life ,
smile for the light , yeah I found miss right ,
your lips are minor kiss , your hips are minor grip ,
forget the rest baby girl , cus I promise this is it ,
and this is for you , I dedicate every bar ,
and if you ever feel alone , I am never too far ,
but no matter what I say , it will never phase you ,
but baby God did his best work when he made you , yeah .


-Rem.

128.

SKATING YESSSSSs.
time to wake up at 10 and leave at 1. @_@
1 and a half hours of circling should keep me satisfied for a while...
SOMEONE SHOULD GO WITH ME D:

side note
i think my voice is screwed. @_@
it keeps sounding muffled.
bleh.

ANYWAYS
i hate horoscopes
because
they are so ambigious that I can't see it coming until it happens.
then it's like
OH SHIT WTF?
and i can't remember the horoscope so it's like
uh....G2GBYE.
=\

horoscopes
i loathe thee.
AND LOATHE IS NOT LOVE DAMNIT. ) : <

naivety is not rewarded.

-Rem.

127.5 PLANNINGGGGGGGGGG

oh shit.
IS AND SOCIALS BOOKS.

shit
someone remind me to head to the library afterschool....
I'll end up camping there til 2 or somethin'. ._.
maybe I'll hit minoru library instead.
eh
AND
OMG SKATING FROM 9AM-3PM.
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
time to kill my legs.
BUT
HELL YESSSSSSSSS

sadly
no one else wants to skate. Q_Q
=\

scifair!
need to prep up and wait or the 5 days to pass.
at least next week is work free right
because it's essay time.
fuck.
=\
IS TIME TOO.
SHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET
I'm going to be 74% in IS again.
fun, fun.
can't wait for planning
what horrors await me there.

127

omg.
tomorrow is short classes.
YESSSSSSSSS>
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!
english&socials.
i hate socials.
english is bearable because english is fun
and because ms.arnold is awesome.
like ms.scott.
sigh.
i wish mr.puddicombe didn't retire. =\
UNRELATED BUT OKAYYYYYYYYY
moving on.

started to wait for 5 days for sci-fair. fun next 5 days i shall have. ._.
how i loathe science fair.
i wish it would just
DIE.
just like socials essay
and IS project.
btw,
did i mention my group is fucked for tomorrow?
handout. holyshit.
i hope jim/sherlene do their job.

sigh.
OMG.
ITS ONLY 9:30
WIN
I AM
GOING TO SLEEP BEFORE 12 TODAY.
YESSSSSSSSSSSS!
Win.
8D

anyways.
hd228 is luring me in.
Q_Q
especially with yuchen having me research headphones now and not earbuds.
D:
sigh
ONE DAY.
THAT SMEXY WHITE HEADPHONE.
SHALL BE CLAIMED.
(and kill my wallet)
BUT.
IT
IS
8D

better than 'yo soloHDs.
coughjustbeatsCOUGH.

-rem.

126.5

planning ahead=
deciding what I'm going to do on friday.
swim.
skate.
homework.
all at minoru~!
because SAT on saturda realy is a joy-kill. =\

-Rem.

126.

ouch.
that hurts.
=\

11/20 on accounting.
screw you general journal/ledger pair,
don't inf-combo, let me down.

sigh.
class in 15.
i like the class.
but like always
i'll hate it all the way until it happens
then
i'll love it.
guess that's why i'm still taking it.
still allowing it to be in my schedule.
sigh.

for some reason...
never mind.
because
no one seems to
ever
speak their mind.

anyways.
tumblr.
why you die on me.
sigh, i don't even know whether the button was clicked or not.
tumblr,
you hate on me.
i give.
you win tumblr.
time to go.

want to read eleven minutes.
just because paulo coelho is amazing.
screw the fact that i chose it because it was short.
it is
amazing.

gah, phone died and needs recharging.
at least i have minutes now. @_@

oh and
dear you,
tell me soon.

-Rem.

Psst, just remembered.
hah, I beat your measly 1.5k psat score. AND YOU'RE A GRADE OLDER!
8D

125.

I'm. So. Glad. I. Found. You.
-Elliot Reid.

Now, I wonder if you feel the same.

-Rem.

124.

sucked into audiophile again...
last time that happened was when I got those RHJE300s.
those were amazing.

sadly.
their durability is not amazing.

but the sony pair i have right now
their durability is godlike.
or maybe i just learned how to not rhape a pair of in-ears within half a year.

sennheiser pmx60, hd218/228 or px100/200ii
^they make me want to save up for them.
sadly, i'll have no money for around...3-4 monthes?
*sigh*

why aren't the white 228's for 60$ like it is on bestbuy.COM, not ca.
canadian px200ii should come in white.
those headphones look amazing.

anyways
no progress in LT today.
made like what, 30%?
anyways
I always knew ai wasn't the 'normal' kind.
but
eh.
shouldn't expect thigs out of people anyways.
though i kinda knew.
but didn't really help.
now i feel like shit.
i hate discussing things on blogs.
i feel like shit afterwards.
back to annoyed feeling.
./repeat yesterday.

>_>

-Rem.

123.

Toki-kun.
Q_Q

i hate the author for making yuuki and toki enemies. @_@
and npot. ._.
wtf, irie, just stfu and kick his ass already.
filler chapters are shit.
and you know it.

sigh
i'm annoyed.
not with my mom's decision
but the fact that i can't fight for it.
i feel shitty and useless
and that
really pisses me off.
shit mood, start now.

-Rem.

122.

uhm.
1:11am. : )

not the best time to type a blog, but meh. could be worse.
found a soul urn.
gumiho i think it's called
^ignore if you 99.999% of the people who have no idea what I'm saying.
: )

i have been shocked when jessica showed me aj rafeal - when we stay and i realized that the mv was made by wongfuproductions.
holy shit.
where have i been. @_@
i saw everything between that upload. what the hell.

ANYWAYS.
that song is really...gah.
it's like god's trying to fuck with me again. >_>
i hate when it happens.
just like the newest problem in life.

anyways
how do you define 'loving someone'?
liking someone is different, that's just enjoying being with them (for me).
trusting is when you can talk about anything to them without it being weird.
suddenly, i can't even tell anymore.
who?
why?
for how long does this go on.

being the sole one to understand someone is painful.
but
not having a single person understand you, yourself included, is shit.
i don't even know anymore. ._.
it's not enough to pull another gr7 stunt.
hell, nothing will be worth that...
sigh. maybe i should get more of a social life before trying for ib.

another thing.
i feel
...
nothing

you know, when you're in school with projects looming above you, you feel pressure.
but
i'm feeling nothing. I have science fair and IS Country project and Socials essay and ENglish IRP and so on.
maybe baddy will help some...
sigh.
maybe i should go run at minoru again at 1am when my parents are asleep. =\

sigh,
point proven.
no one knows me.
well enough.
maybe rene.
but
not the other side.
i'm a hypocrite gavin.
sorry.

-Rem.

121

hey pre-ib teachers.

I know.
i know that ib isn' for the student that has not felt failure.
not for the student who has always been the best, bu may come to ib and realize that he's nothing.
i know

i knew, from the day i was accepted into MY.
my first reaction: 'what, no way.'
i proceeded to see if the smarter people who applied got in.
they didn't
only ones(guys) were sean and yuchen.
i had forseen them get in anyways, with their marvelous scores and all.

but. kc and ab. the didn't.
i excepted them too.
with their 6+ strings of A's.
compared to my lowly 2-3.

i, was shocked.
thanks MY, for screwing with my gr7 final project.
i spent most of the time i had for the project just wondering.
wondering, how the hell did I get in. what do I have that they don't?
they're smarter, better, more athletic, more artistic and creative, and they are confident in themselves.
i don't have any of that.

that's why i had extra time to finish my project.
ms.scott gave me 2 extra weeks.
btw, isn't ms.scott is AMAZING?
don't answer that.
she is.

it took me about year after then, to finally realize.
haha, i think i lied when i said 'i realized when i was accepted into MY'
more like, a year after i was accepted.

damned ib prep talks and crap.
hit me pretty hard that,
damn.
i'm fit for it. o_o

other than my shit grades LOL.

and now this is geting weird to type because boasting was never something i could do anytime.
heck.
it wasn't something i could do at all without feeling weird.
this is why compliments throw me off.
being shit makes me want to improve.
compliments make me cocky.
i hate feeling cocky.
it's like the worse feeling on earth.
unless i'm being 100% sarcastic.

-Rem.

119.

lol.
laptop
headphones
feels like college life.
only without the college.

life is only FUCKING WITH ME.

lol

-Rem.

116

ib info night
boring.
nothing i haven't heard before.

math class.
finally.
understood.
trig identities... ._.
sure took me a while.
!*(#$).

french title page.
cao.
science test.
cao
math test.
...eh.

ANYWAYS.
back to french.

-Rem.

115.1

back from class.
liang zhu.
first.
holy.

suddenly
i have a new appreciation for anyone who could play that before.
those slidy notes....
@_@

now to dinner.
dinde. ;o

-Rem.

115.

fun day.
on the way home.
i meet more people than normal.
was going to leave straight away because wed = recycling club so yuchen&wayne stay until later.
but apparently, there isn't club today.

Walking up to 49th, meet Brandon. : O!

getting to cambie, i thought that girl was iris.
apparently wayne stalks iris, and brandon stalks that girl.
xD

Got off at YVR, phone started to ring.
my first thought = "HOLY SHIT DID MAGGIE CHANGE HER MIND..AGAIN?!"
reluctant to pick up....
but picked up anyways.
girl's voice.
first thought = "HOLY SHIT IT IS. HOLY CRAP WHY DOES SHE CHANGE HER MIND SO FAST. I'M NOT GOING BACK!"
then.
'oh wait, thats not her. -headdesk-'
xD

saw Chantel&darren on the skytrain.
they're getting off at Aberdeen because chantel has a math class and dragged darren there with her. ;o

everyone got off. and i'm alone.
get off a brighouse, walk a bit and see eva.
30 seconds later.
'HOLYSHITBUSSSSSSSSSSSSS!'
obviously catch the bus, and get home.
@_@

fun day.

114.6

haha.
i just realized how almost every single one of my posts that are directed to 'you' are directed to the same person.
maybe i should clarify who it is.
because i don't know who reads this...
because the last time i was posting on live...
aaron was following.
and i'm just like
O_O?
LOLWUT?!
-shock-

yesh.
:3

and if aaron's reading this now.
it's okay. LOL

back to science.
-Rem.

114.5

ugh.
if you're like miwa.
holy shit.

@_@
life has suddenly because much MUCH more confusing. =\
you probably are.
just that.
sigh.

inner thoughts are to remain inner thoughts.
meh.

114.

hn.
why is it that
it's much easier to talk via the internet
then it is in real life?

Does the person really change all that much?
i wonder.

through the internet, i talk to people I never would have in real life situations.
not because they're strangers
or because the live too far away
but because of our society's way of grouping.

people form separate groups are not suppose to interact.
in school, that's easy to see.
on the internet, no one knows.
and don't even bring up trojans, hackers and such.
most people don't know.
and never will.

the internet is making real life awkward.
via it, i'm able to 'chat' to someone else for hours on end.
but bring that situation to real life.
and that conversation dies in minutes.

how fun.

-Rem.

113.

today, was the first time in several years that i actually ate the chocolate someone gave to me, and not have it being gifted to some other kid.
damn, does it taste good.
but then again
my teeth will die.
in minutes.

was looking for my web cam's driver, and finally found it.
and then just screwed around by god because the damned cs has like 6 drivers.
i think i got it.
u908 is 201...
apparently the cd thinks numbers are 707 digits smaller than they actually are.

and just fyi.
i'm not interested. ._.

AND
HAHAH!
MY WEBCAM'S WORKING.
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
sadly
i won't use it.
because.
): <

anyways.
school tomorrow.
T-T
sadface.
sigh.

Should start sci-fair now
&sleep.

-Rem.

112.

bored at class. =/

Is it just me or am i fucking up friendships without really knowing it?
Its like...i say something that i think is okay, but the other person thinks im just being an asshole.

Sigh.
Take one step at a time.

I wanted that to be my tumblr name... But
1. It was kinda...eh.
2. It was taken.

More 1 than 2.
2 could be easily 'removed' but 1 can't.

And this guy to my left is being retarded. -.-

Je ecrive francias on this thing.

Sadly, no chinese.
This is why i hate sundays...
Oh and saturdays too.

Ill pull up my code from last year and type out a lot of shit when i get back. I swear..i need to rant about some stuff because this class is horrible. Ugh.

I wish this day would just end...
Hell, I wish this school year would just end. It's one hell of a torture.
Maybe even grade 11 will be shit.
Because gr11 is the year where you should prepare for university.

fuck. I hate this class.
But...it's suppsedly 'useful'.
And no, i'm not using this time to try toimprove my typing on this phone.

Sigh.

Oh how badly do i want to just put on some earbuds and let the world drift away...
And totally not sign to myself. :3

Somehow google bdellium for me. What the shit is that.

111

Suitable for January 1st, 2011.

Haha.
It's funny how I type up a 'frat' oh something i want to write in here on my ipod, but then just go 'meh, not like it has to be here'.
Motivation-less.
@_@

New Year's Resolution: Work. Hard. and the other ones I had typed up before...on my ipod.
>_>

if only you could extract it.
sighhh.

110

It's 4 am.
I can't sleep.
slept too much in the car

no one's online to talk to.
literally
NO ONE.
._.

sigh.
lets go find some random pandora's box to open
and unleash diseases and sickness around the world, but keep hope in the box.
>_>

too bored to type trip.
sigh.

need more friends that stay awake well past 3am on year news...lol.