183.

Sigh. The more I read mangas by Seo, the more I feel I'm missing out on a HUGE part of life.
Though, I think I have kind of left this before. Maybe around last year? Yeah, when gaming became incredibly boring, and I was bored to tears.
It feels like that now.

With school gone, I don't have much of a hobby to keep me busy.
Sure, I like art, music and photography, but I'm not the type to draw randomly, try to create music or walk outside with a camera.
I'm just not like that.
Sure, I can BE like that. and I have quite a bit of ideas that I have stockpiled over the years, but I just...can't see myself actually doing that.

I can't get into a working mode without there being some sort of deadline, time frame, or just someone telling me to start working. =\

Suddenly, I find myself inadvertently feeling jealous. Jealous at the people who have what that I want, the people who can get it but choose not too, and the characters in harmen/romances (harmen? i don't even know if it qualifies for that, maybe just romance) mangas. They get one, then lose it in about 20-30 chapters because they have their 'fatal flaw'. Most of the time it is just that they are stupid, or a natural gigolo. Sigh.

Especially Seo, his art makes me want to try to experience it for myself, and hell, sometimes they have the same thought patterns that I have. It's kinda creepy.

Yamato. Haruto.
I'm so jealous right now.

Even of that one-shot character, Half and Half - which I read a while ago.

A Town Where You Live, eh?
Yeah, I wish you'd stay in this town. Stay long enough for me to come back, and see.

Kimi no Iru Machi.

-Rem.

182.

Sometimes you're really selfish, I hate that about you.
You talk about everyone, but me.
And it's like you don't really care, I'm only there so you have someone to talk to.
Sometimes I wonder "Why am I doing this still?"
Really, I don't even know why, I probably stopped liking you already, no matter how cute or innocent you may be, I'll probably stop.
And I probably won't even say anything. You can just go on without knowing.

Hah.
Don't be so conceited and think it's you.
Gosh.


sidenote: i just realized that people read this. people who i didn't even know... e_e

-Rem.

181.

You piss me off.
SERIOUSLY.

All you do is ask me for stuff.
'do this'
'tell me that'
your excuse is 'we're friends right?'

Well, treat people like YOU want to be treated you little bitch.
You don't do anything for me, you're really arrogant you know that?
It's so annoying that I don't even want to talk to you anymore. Geez, every single damned time you talk to me it's "CAN YOU DO ____ " for me?

I feel like I'm being used as a tool these days, and that really pisses me off.

I seem to be finding that I am the type to hate people who don't do their own work. There should be no excuse to not do homework, unless you can't read english, then you shouldn't even be there.

Getting HELP is okay, but asking for ANSWERS is not.

unless i'm feeling overly generous, I probably won't.
but if it's in person, I don't have the courage to tell you no.
>_>

*sigh*

No actual references are made to events that happened today, except for you being a total lazy bastard. It's one fucking link, go search for it, don't make me do your shit.
and it's a fucking challenge for gods sake, do it yourself.

-Rem.

180.

LOL I'M SUCH A CHEATER.
it's been 17 days without a post here, and it's just like, oh yeah, it's 180 now. even though the last one was 163. yup, nothing changed.

anyways.
Osu!
Damned jianvern...

SOCIALS. HOLY CRAP NOT COOOOOLLLL.
-scared-
i don't want to go tomorrow...don't want to go....
I need a scripit if I do go...

Dad's back tomorrow!
Seemed kinda down on the phone, the funeral still hasn't left his mind, probably... =\
And he's birthday is the day after.
What do i get. What do I do. =\
sigh...

RED TOGA TMR. : D
i sure hope that we're allowed.
and I sure hope to hell that I don't go or socials.
SOCIALS.
q-q
I need more time to qq over it! Don't give it to me tomorrowww!

And kyle, I knew it. ; )
I thought you said you 'used to' like her? Started again? : D
I'm glad it's her though, you make a nice couple. <3
And yes, I probably am high right now.
I mean I typed '<3' without a second thought. =\

NDS roms have gone away,
And Now I'm stuck with nothing to play.
I hope they come back soon,
Or else I shall be doomed,
To wait another week
and feel extremely meek.
So i pray for their return
Or my life shall be adjourned.

qq

Rene, you made me rhyme now too... =\

-Rem.